Today was a lazy day, or another one I should say.  We sat around the house and played with Noah all day.  Dad, Mandy and Isabella came by to see the baby, but other than that...the day was slow.  We are trying to get the lazy out of our system because when Monday rolls around...it's all over but the crying!  Monday is gym and diet day!  So, for supper tonight, we had Olive Garden, and tomorrow night we are going to Birmingham with friends to the Comedy club, then out to eat afterward.
The THOUGHT of getting my body back on track is exciting, however, I know that once Monday arrives, I will be dreading the new schedule.
Besides the main fact that I need to get back in shape, and eat a better diet, I have been feeling the heavy weight of discontent.  It feels like I'm missing something in my life and I'm not sure what it is yet.  It could be that once we get back on a healthy track that it will all just come together, and I hope that's the case.  However, today when I was thinking about how I was feeling and trying to figure out what it is that I'm "MISSING," I wondered if it might be church, a job, more girlfriends in the area with kids Noah's age.  I'm not sure what it is, but I know that I miss the feeling of achievement/accomplishment.  As I mentioned above, I'm just hoping and praying that things start to come together more once we begin our healthy lifestyle.  There's nothing else quite like getting your self confidence back!
I don't want this to be a 'poor me' blog, or a type of outlet that would be better saved for therapy, but this is where my journey begins. I don't feel that I can truly see my growth if I'm not honest about where I'm starting from at this point.  I hope that in the future, I can look back on this blog, from this date, and think, 'Wow, I sure came a long way!'

Ok, so I'm totally not using this as an excuse to NOT get on the ball and get to exercising but we had to take Noah to get his 3 month photos today.  He will actually be 4 months old in 4 days, but we are a little behind on most everything!  :)  Tomorrow is Friday, so we have decided to enjoy the weekend, and start things on Monday.  We are going to march our chubby butts right in the front door of the gym down the road and tell them that we are tired of the Lard and want to hit it Hard...Ok, so we are NOT really going to say that.  However, we are going to go in and get to work on Monday as long as nothing happens like me having a run in with a tub of ice cream and throwing my back out or something.  More than anything, I'm looking forward to getting my energy back and having some GET UP AND GO!  I never really fully understood what people meant about having no energy because they were out of shape, but I can honestly say that I do now.  It won't be long till Noah is up and moving around on his own and talking, and as we all know, babies will tell you the truth.  I just cringe at the thought of my little boy telling me that I have a fat butt or big 'ole legs!  I want to be the kind of Mama that has the energy to play with my son, keep my house clean AND go to the gym.  I don't think that's hoping for too much!

Slow Start

Well, it's been 2 or 3 days since I was going to start my FRESH START, and so far,,,,, I have FLUNKED. I have the motivation of a sick, angry, slug. The less that I get accomplished, the worse I feel, and the less motivated that I feel. What a vicious cycle!!! I took some time to write to one of my friends that has a 20 month old baby and looks FANTASTIC, and ask her HOW she does it. I was Shocked to find out that she has NO help as she has no family in the area that she lives. She has the body of a playboy playmate, and obviously the motivation of an olympian!! I have a mother that helps me more than I could ask for and a husband that is a super dad....and yet I get nothing done. I think that this is starting to say ALOT about ME. I need a swift kick in the ass to get me up and going and on track again.
Yes, my life is now different since I have a baby, but NO, that doesn't mean that I have to let myself go tot he point that I have. I'm going to give my friend with a baby a call and get some good tips from her. If she can do it, then there's no reason that I can't too! I'll keep blogging my updates, and just HOPE that I will have something positive to report soon. I would post pictures of my BEGINNING point, then later post some of my progress, but I'm just too embarrassed of my Beginning point at this time. Maybe later when I HAVE made some progress, then I can post them, just not now. It's not like the tabloids are waiting around to grab pics of me to show to the world, but even if ONE of my friends saw pictures of me now, it would humiliate me! At this point, I try hiding out so that no one sees me!!

Just the Beginning.

I'm sitting here on Sunday night, decked out in a grandmaw nightgown, hair unbrushed, no makeup, and a fuzzy pair of house shoes. I do have a bit of an excuse for it today since my hubby (Brian) and I both are sick with a bad cold. However, I can't give good excuse for all the other days that I end up laying around in the exact same attire and not getting anything done. I have been taking a good look at myself lately, and I don't like this person that I am becoming. I feel like a big pot of lazy slug. I'm no longer comfortable in my clothes (those that DO fit), and I have the energy of an 80 year old woman! I go to bed late, I sleep late, then I feel bad about sleeping late, so I don't get dressed all day, and then it's another vicious cycle the very next day. I also eat terrible foods, that do nothing for my figure OR my energy level, not to mention my over all health. TONIGHT, I am accepting full responsibility for the mess that I feel like, and I'm ready to make a change. I plan to get in bed early tonight, and wake up early in the AM and start my day. I'm not sure how to juggle it all with a new baby, but I know that it must be possible because there are PLENTY of new Mother's that look and feel great!
Tomorrow morning, I am going to get up and finish organizing the whole house so that we can have the deep cleaners come in and clean from crown molding to base boards---which will be NICE! I am hoping that perhaps if I keep a journal of my plans to make some life changes that I will be more apt to stay on track.
So, first things first.